i cant seem to let myself fall asleep now, been awake for the past 90mins. it is going to be the eve of Syawal today, definitely very sombre for me, my mom and my brother. it is the day which I hope that my late dad is still here, celebrating the festive together as a family. I wish that he is still here so that I will kiss his hand in the morning of Syawal to seek forgiveness and pray for good deeds. You gone too soon, dad. Nevertheless, I will still remember you always. Though you are not here with us anymore, in my heart, I will miss you, we will miss you alot. Your absence left us a deep hole in our hearts. Eversince you left us, we went through alot of obstacles. One problem after the another test our patience, tolerancy and perseverance. Be it from long acquaintance or even close relatives. Although there's a say "blood is thicker than water", that doesnt even apply in today's world and that's the truth. But i believe in, "what goes around comes around"and we are destined to go through every test in this world. As a family, we went through alot from them. I am thankful to Allah, for giving us the strength and determination to go through all of it. And I will continue to seek help from Allah and thank Him for everything. Love you dad.