It's been a hardcore gay day.

I was reminiscing at myself [weird?] about the days to my 'O' levels in 2005. I looked at these two useful boxes that had been keeping my notes, TYS-s, files & bla bla pretty well. And today, I decided to throw away some stuffs from there that are not really needed in my tertiary studies right now. My first stop is the RED ikea box. Three FAT ring files with notes and two normal ring files with notes. There were too many papers la dey. I decided to throw all the past year papers, exam papers from other schools like Yishun town, bla bla, and even Sec2-4 test/exams/notes. hahha. I did not bother to throw the papers when I cleaned up my room for the past five years. Sometimes, I wonder what did I clean/throw away sia. And why do I still have a huge stack of papers waiting for me to dump them somewhere....? Gee. I am done like a quarter of it. 3/4 more to go. I really cannot tahan to do this la. The papers sungguh banyak.com ok. And don't talk to me about the dust. 'Cause I am having slight flu. But it will be alright after I take my bathe.

I miss the times when I really study like mad cow for two consecutive years, last year and the before. It makes me feel so busy, hardworking [ehem.], excited [sometimes] and etc. hahha. Now when I am in RP, I don't really feel stress. Ok besides the people who I worked with sometimes ok. They can make me go nuts for a moment. Oh oh, talking about polytechnic, as I was cleaning up the files and bla bla right, I found some letters. Not love letters ok. The Poly admission letters. haha.

You know, out of five polytechnics I asked for, only TWO accepted me. Temasek and Republic. However, I rejected TP. NOW, don't tell me I took the wrong choice, bla bla. Don't make me feel regret ok. Please. hahha. Sometimes I asked myself, "Kenapa aku tak dapat aper yang aku nak, aku blaja macam nak rak, applied the course that I feel I deserve a place, but in the end, this is the place I end up at?" Sometimes when I am sicked with my current school, I always have this thought playing in my mind. It comes all of a sudden. But then, I told myself again, "This is fate." If I really want to go to another poly, for e.g. TP. I would have accept them and rejected RP in the first place then. No, I am not going to regret more, moan more about it. I accept what had happened, 'cause sometimes I believed, things happened for a reason. And I really want to do well, I must have FAITH. Trust myself that I can do it! cheh cheh. Now I sounds like an idiot. haha.

Anyway, I just want to give some encouragement to those 'N' Levels, 'O' Levels candidates, If you feel depressed 'cause you fail your prelim papers, feel like giving up this major 'war' and quit it. THINK AGAIN. Are you taking the right path? Failure is a not a barrier to succeed. Everyone fails before. Have confidence, but not over-confidence, in yourself. Work hard if you want to achieve what you want. And last of all, pray to HIM, ask him for blessings and forgiveness. Never forget HIM. NEVER.

All the best to ya'll. =)

P.S : I might be blogging later on again. hehe