Skip to main content
Engkau adalah sebahagian kami.
Engkau bagaikan sinaran menyinari hidup kami.
Engkau juga umpama titisan air hujan yang turun berderai ke bumi.
Kami semua menyayangi kamu.

Di sebalik senyuman kami, tersirat perasaan kesedihan dan cemburu saat engkau memjamah kebahagian lain. Kami seolah olah terasa diketepikan. Ibu cuba melemparkan senyuman, tetapi ia tidak bertahan. Aku cuba berasa gembira saat engkau mengecapi kebahagian yang diingini, tetapi aku tidak mampu meneruskannya. Engkau adalah separuh dari kami, aku. Dua wanita yang terlebih dahulu kamu rapat sebelum kehadirannya, kini sedang melalui situasi yang teramat kritikal. Kritikal dari segi melawan perasaan negatif. Dua wanita itu menitiskan air mata bak badai berlalu. Kami semua menyayangi kamu. Doa kami agar kamu bahagia, dan tidak lupakan kami, yang terdahulu mengenali kamu, yang menyokong kamu dari belakang, memberi kritikan yang bernas, yang sebelum DIA hadir.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Ok right now, my mother and I are having some emotional disturbance. It's all about brother. We miss him. We cried inside our heart. It was hard to let it be. It was hard to be strong. He is my only one, my first boyfriend. I got jealous when his fiancee's sister were having fun laughing, teasing with him. When I remembered what I did to him yesterday, I felt sorry for him. Ok shit, I am crying right now. Uh fark.

It was a short happiness yesterday. I had cupcakes. I had some nice precious moments with my LOVE. But it turned out to be different when I raeched home. It was a moment where tsunami, tornado strike. Madam Reddy made me go mad. I screamed at abang for nothing, and I regretted for doing that. I am sorry if I scared Kak Shikin yesterday night. Oh fark, I hate myself right now. I hate myself for behaving like fark. I hate it when I have a farking mood. It sucks. NBCB. I am not in the mood right now.

Happiness in HELL.

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Another Fad's pose. Sungguh gay.com

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Cupcakes models tak le jadi. Put away our tired face, lazy hairstyles. Semua skola ok.

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

CUPCAKES!

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

LOVE. FARK. HATE. HAPPINESS.

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Hey JUMP ! Yo bitches !! Wassup! =D I do not have red eyes right now, but I can still feel the numb, burning and uncomfortable sensation. It sucks, totally. I am still not sure whether I should pay a visit to the clinic. Hmm. And I felt like closing my left eye right now, it's getting heavier right now. Maybe I will become the Pirate of Carribeans, female version. I will go out tomorrow wearing the Pirate's mask, and said "AHOY!". Ok crap, isn't it? And my shades broke like last week, and how am I going to face the public tomorrow? OH DEAR. =\ Oh Oh, I know, maybe I will dress up in one of the Halloween costumes, and pretend that tomorrow is the Halloween Day. =D YEAY. I know, fareha is always up with rock and roll ideas !! \m/ BUT for goodness sake eh fareha, who will ever wear that and take a train to somewhere, let's say TOWN. Bodoh siak idea ko fareha. Ok seriously, how sia. The thought of going to doctor right now is freaking scary. Especially when comes...
Post a Comment
Read more
Usah biar ku bersendirian, Usah biar hati mu ditawan, Usah biar diriku di sini seorang menunggu tanpa teman. Usah lepaskan genggaman tanganmu, Usah biar semua berlalu, Usah terlupa perasaan hati pertama kali bertemu. So school ends early for me today. Im in class right now. Shaf and nurul will leave school a little bit later. So I will go first. I will meet them again, next year term2. Miss you teteks. And sooooo my HOLIDAY begins!!!! YAHOOOOOOO!!! Im sexcited right now. hahha. I'm listening to TB's songs, Usah Lepaskan and Sesuatu Janji. NICE. great. hahha Now, I am finding job. Job Hunting. =) Anyone wants to meet me after school today? Or maybe afternoon? I am bored for sure. I need to finish up my RJ, quiz and evaluation first. hahha. Ah Ok, I am leaving right now. Bye bye RP. See you again next year, 2007!
Post a Comment
Read more
07.08.06 How does it feels when someone keeps on putting pressure on you? It sucks, doesn't it? So yes. That is what I am feeling currently. It sucks big time. I just can't control it anymore. Out of my hand. Out of my way. Like @#$@%@%. Heck. Ignore this feeling. I don't want to talk about it anymore. Anyway, I saw psykeleticz in Malay paper today! Woah! Naufal was freaking cute like always. hahha. Wuhoo! hahha. Like seriously, I want tutek go and take his picture tomorrow. hahha. It doesn't matter if it's his picture alone or with tutek. hahha. I know psykeleticz last year during a competition at Zouk. Thanks to tutek la. She introduced me all this hip hop stuffs. hahha. And seriously, Naufal is very cute. Even kuntet agrees with me, right kuntet? hahha. I went out with Tutek after school. Accompanied her to marina square as she wants to do her retail therapy. And I saw this nice Puma Jumper larhs! Ya Ampun! Sungguh cantik.com larh. I think I will get that someday...
Post a Comment
Read more