I got myself drunk everyday after work, just to get myself free from problems at work and... personal life. fark. Thanks for the concern from the people I know, the emails, the phone calls, the messages. I'm not asking for publicity to my problem, but I have anger that needs to be free. And If you think I really go drinking, gotcha! I won't k, cause it would make me fat and ugly and all these. Like whatever k.

Just so you know, he called me on Tuesday, 27th March 2007. Yar, you read it right. He found me again, the day after he said to me that he wants it to be over. Like wtf. I do no create trouble with him, and yet, he left me just like that. And after all, he WAS just my close friend though, no more than that. So whatever k.

Probably what Tutek said about him was true, she doesn't like him, and she doesn't ever like me being friends with him. Now, I truly regretted for not listening to Tutek. And Kuntet, did advice me about his characters. Oh well, I deserved this blessing in disguise though.

So well, you probably want to know whether I did answer his call? Oh shit, you going to hate me forever, I PICKED UP HIS CALL. I don't know, I find it hard not to answer his call. I even ran to the pantry and answered his call. And he said,

"Hey, so how are you?"
"Err Fine?..."
"I'm sorry for being tak berhati perut to you yesterday."
"Beh aper? I tot you want it to be over. so what's this call for anyway?"
"No I was just checking out if everything is fine."

In my mind,
*fark you la k, you think everything is fine urh? You made it sounds so easy k, cb. You knew it but yet you still act as if nothing happened. nb.

"Whatever la k, I got to go already, Im working now in case you FORGET. BYE."

Yar, Im so proud of myself that I am one strong bitch right now. Really. I didn't cry or beg him to stay or whatever. I felt so much better when hanging the phone like that, giving him my monotonous reply, being sarcastic to him and all these. PHEW! That was such an awesome feeling. Really. But I beg to differ a bit though, I'm still having a bit of -slap-on-my-face- feeling.

I need a break man, I need to meet TUTEK seriously, and KUNTET. GOD. I miss these two so much. 3 weeks and 1 week not meeting them respectively. Oh god, I need the girls now. KTV la jom. Serious. Aku stress siak. knnccbslj. ARGH! I hate you laaaaa!