I received a phone call at 5.32am in the morning, and I knew it was not going to be something GREAT. Who the hell would call you at this hour? I wasn't reluctant to pick up the call, but Im not sure whether its going to be a good call though. I was half asleep and not that really prepared to be fully concious when I answered it. Oh boy, an unknown voice started talking to my ears. He sounds pretty serious though and I thought he was up to disturb me or what. He started talking and I swear Im at the verge of crying.

Fark to your shits ok. He said he doesn't wants us to be more serious in these and he said 'it's better to walk in our separate ways.' Now tell me why did you give me hopes and I feel like you are the one I fallback to again and again? Anger started to pile up, and on the same time, I felt sorry for him cause he seems guilty for it. OH GOD. In my mind, "Control yourself, far. It ain't a bitch to control all these."

So he asked me if there's anything else I would like to say before we end this forever. wtf. I really thought I heard things wrongly cause Im half asleep right? And I thought he was joking. fark. I felt like I am already prepared for this, really. Its like a dream though. I had a prepared speech stored in my brain for 24355657 times.

"I dont know what made you do all these. You made the decision and you insist me agree on that. So it's going to be your LOSS, and not MINE. I dont think there would be any other friends would want to put up with your shits. You got over-sensitive for nothing, and yet, I still said it's my fault. You blame me for nothing, and I said its my fault, but atcually you are in wrong. It's going to be a LOSS for you, really. Ouh and Im not begging you to stay ok, and if you think its nice telling this news at this time, bagus la tuh ok. And if you happen to find someone that behaves like me, tell me though. I want to see how long the girl can tahan with your nonsense. Thanks for the good news, ***** Bye"

& i dont bother to know what was his reply and all these. I cried, look, he is not my boyfriend but my close friend. I dont know why but whenever we started quarreling and all these, and remain isolated from each other for a year or so, we would start finding each other again. But hell ya, it's over now. And the unknown is the first person ever that I talked everything out. I bottled up all my feelings and let it out just now. God, Im trying to hold up my tears right now. My eyes were swollen just now and colleagues thought I got bashed up. Why oh why. Do you really feel what Im feeling now, don't you? Tell me how, how, how. Get me a beer right now, I want to get myself drunk.