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there are certain things that still keep me wondering in the dark. i don't know why you still bother to get back to me after all the things you had done. i don't know why i can't stop wondering about the fact that you just left me like that months ago, made me feel more terrible after dad's death and you treated me like i'm just someone's substitute. It's not the first time it happened either, and somehow when this thing kept repeating again and again, I got numb with it.

hear me now, i wasn't trying to be arrogant or snobbish to you. i don't want my loved ones to have those thoughts that i could never imagine of. i don't want to lose my precious. i don't want what i have right now will left me all alone and i will be just nothing, back to square one. Just because of some stupidity act. Yes, we are still friends but there are limitations to it. i don't think its necessary for me to answer your questions like where am I right now and etc. i hope you won't feel hurt with what i said if you happened to read this. If you were me, you would do the exact approach too. Things have change and feelings too, my dear friend.

I wish you the best in your life and may you meet someone new. Take care. :)

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