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i'm back again with another update. mom is going for umrah this saturday, 30th May 2009. its a difficult situation for me to go through this, she will be away for 15days. although shes gg with her group of friends, i still have this insecure feeling for her. i still have this phobia. i dont know what will you call it, but its related to death. losing my late dad all of sudden is already enough for me, its too much for me to cope with. i dont want to lose my mom, my another precious. losing my dad is really enough. i just hope that everything will go fine. i've been feeling pretty down recently, i will miss my mom terribly. i've been crying myself to sleep almost every night, i will definitely miss her alot for the 15days. i really need god's help at this moment, to make me stronger. and also to make mom come back home safely. its very hard to explain hw it feels. losing your dad, and letting go of your mom for 15days. its difficult, i will miss my parents alot. i love you, mom and dad.

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